About four weeks of production has passed now since we began this beast-whore called NAUSEA. We are successfully through 1/8th of the script (as in almost 1/8th of the script (about 7 pages) has been shot and put into post). Yay! The footage is quite good, the acting is impressive, the evolution of story and form has been an amazing thing to witness. It has been quite eye opening to do this film. The character (at least the one we have shot so far) is a real human, with depth and emotion and hilarity and substance… there is truth behind these character’s eyes. A story that burns at them to tell. I have fallen in love with their dilemmas. I have empathy beyond description for the fate of “The Man” and “The Woman” and all the minor character’s (even though none of these character’s seem “minor” in my eyes).
I have picture edited a few scenes and Dustin has picture edited one.
Everything is cutting together extremely well, the humor is outstandingly subtle and also absurdly obvious; “The Man” is not represented as the “monster” he becomes on paper… in my humble opinion, he may not ever be seen in this way.
The story at least, from the perspective of The Man has become a new theme. The story of unrequited love. An allegory of true love. Of course, the story seems disturbing on the surface; obsessive, violent, sexually perverse, darkly comic… but from the perspective of the man it is wholly romantic and true and honest. It is about true love and fear of rejection. Who has not felt this? Which man in this fucked up, disturbed, romantically disintegrated world does not fear this?
I see”The Woman” through the eyes of “The Man”. I see the beauty of her world, of her essence, of her…
This is true romance. This is true love. This is the tragedy of the story.
Now let’s see how the juxtaposition of the other character’s changes the way we see him… another tragic point to the theme and ideas of the movie… how does the way other people exist effect the way we do? How can the views other’s have on those around us turn us from hopeless dreamers to a terrifying monster?
With each addition to another person’s story your own story changes… with each moment in your neighbor’s life your existence is altered. We do not live for ourselves as we think we do… we do not simply affect our own lives or cause and effect of our own lives… even if our lives never interact or cross or seem to breathe the same air, we effect the way other’s see each other, we effect the outcome of other people’s lives, we unknowingly destroy the destiny of the innocent, and in some cases that can drive an individual living in his/her own fucked up fleshy existence to destroy others knowingly. Anger is a beast. Boredom is odious. Desire can eat away at your soul. Rejection is pain. Love is eternal. Love is rarely found… it is always overlooked. The fortunate one’s abandon it. The lucky finder’s of true love are in most cases destroyed by the dreamers.
And those of us in search of eternal companionship are forced into the shadows of this never ending desire. The perversions of the universe have raped humanity. We have been cursed by the malevolent forces above us to live alone, to live the lies, to be deceived by love. It is no longer acceptable to wish for a traditional love, but to live the life of sexual deviance… a love based on the size of your cock, the width of your hips, the duration of your sexual stamina, the smell of your vagina! What ever happened to truth!? Whatever happened to divine connection!
Well, there was a rant… The shoot is going well. I am learning a lot. Hope you all enjoy the movie.
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